Mrs.
Year Delivered or Published: 2007
Author: Sue And Edwards
Author's Faith: Unity
Date Submitted to Inspiration and Issues: April 20, 2007
Topic: Interfaith Issues
Understanding
“The warriors of my tribe would call you ‘woman who knows too much and it has made you crazy’. Your curse is that you have to live with yourself.”¸ he said.
That’s Clel, he’s always popping off saying something like that. Something that plain makes me laugh. People call him crazy, too, half Native American, half Mexican, and proud of it. A real firecracker. Of course, it’s his craziness I find thoroughly enjoyable about him. He’s astute, with much insight and, is totally clueless.
My Husband spoke up, “Maybe the curse is living with the rest of us?”
At that, I started to laugh. “It’s a real experience all right. Like living with a bunch of Helen Keller dolls. Ever considered what it’s like to be right in front of someone and not be seen? Run over, run through, bumped into, stepped on, ignored, you name it. I really do try my best to stay out of the way most of the time. It’s ‘safer’ that way.”
My Husband rolled his eyes. “That doesn’t sound very complimentary.”
Depends on how we choose to take it. Offense can only be taken. If our goal is blindness, then I pay Us a compliment of great Respect and Admiration. We have succeeded in our goal. It’s only if we don’t consider ourselves as blind and recognize our goal of blindness, that my statement is less than supportive. I consider myself part of ‘Us’. I’ve been blind. I’ve been deaf. And I sure as heck have been dumb. Maybe not in this lifetime to the extent of others but still blind and deaf and dumb. Being able to admit it and accept it, is the cure for it. I haven’t met a One of Us yet who were ignorant on purpose. We don’t know what we don’t know. We’ve all been there.
Being able to see ourselves as we are, not as wish to be seen, creates the inspiration within us for change. What I know as ‘True Repentance’. When we see ourselves in a mirror and don’t like what we see, we’re inspired to change. If we want to change the reflection, we need to change what’s doing the reflecting. Show thyself improved. It’s like looking at myself in jogging pants and a baggy sweatshirt, inspires me to go change my clothes. Better yet, it’s the picture entitled ‘Vanity’. You know the one I mean. From one perspective, it appears to be a fine lady sitting in front of her dressing table but then you get a good look at it and…it’s a picture of a skull.
I remind Us that Helen Keller was a magnificent woman. She radiated much Light of Understanding into the worlds of those we labeled ‘defective’. She was truly brilliant. Once her world within was unlocked and ways of expression learned, we could all recognize it. It’s the same with the rest of Us, once we begin to unlock what’s within Us.
Brilliance. That’s what within Us. Every single One of Us. To the extent we don’t know it, is the extent our veils are blinding Us to it.”
“Veils?”, my Husband asks.
Blinders, screens, filters that obscure, veils. The only reason everyone doesn’t know what I know, is because of the filters. The filters obscure the Light of Clarity and the Light of Truth.
Try imagining sunglasses instead of veils. If I put on a hundred pair of sunglasses, I wouldn’t be able to see much of anything, if anything. It would appear to me that nothing was there, no matter what was there. Reminds me of a little kid that thinks if they cover their eyes, I can’t see them. If I want to see, I need to start removing the sunglasses, one pair at a time.
It’s the same way with our veils. And these veils are made of our beliefs.”
“What we think?”
“Not necessarily. Our beliefs are what we really feel in our Hearts. Our heads aren’t in contact with our Hearts a lot of the time. Intimacy is a BIG issue for a great many of Us. So whether our thoughts accurately reflect our beliefs is questionable. Sometimes, yes. Most of the time, no. We don’t think we’re blind. We believe we are.
We knock our lights out then complain it’s dark.”
“What do you mean ‘knock our light out’?”
“We stick a finger in our eye then complain that something’s in it.
We don’t believe we’re capable of knowing ‘God’, so…we don’t.
Like I’ve said, ‘The only way to overlook the obvious is not to look.’
There’s a belief that ‘God’ is beyond a Human Being’s capacity to know and understand. That belief, is what I call ‘knocking our lights out’. It negates our minds, our cognitive ability, our ability to associate ideas, and our capacity of imagination. And let’s not forget our Intuition. This belief in ‘not knowing’ is Ignorance. Perpetual, congenital, ignorance. It has been specifically written that we were made in ‘God’s’ image. Unless ‘god’ is a dumb-ass, there’s no reason we should be.
I don’t accept the idea that ’God’ is beyond our capacity to know and understand. I refuse to negate and dishonor the Ever Loving Mind I have and am Sovereign over. If I divorce myself from my tool of Understanding, then I won’t understand, that’s for sure. Just as poking my eyes out insures I’ll be blind.
It’s simply a matter of perspective who’s really crazy. I’m not crazy; the World is.”
“That’s one of the classic symptoms of being crazy: thinking it’s not you”, says Hubby.
You’re right. I did question myself. Long ago. I ‘studied’ and now show myself improved. I used to be crazy, too, so long as I thought and believed the way the World taught me to think and believe. I was young then. And naïve. The World’s pattern of thought is all conflicted.
I’ve got my own litmus test for crazy: Making sense. I make sense. The beliefs of the World, don’t. If anything, I’m too sane. No matter how long it takes me to talk in circles, I always make a point. And when I do, I’ve come full circle. It’s called ‘complete’.
“The only way to overlook the obvious is not to look?”
“Precisely. Once I’ve negated my tool of Understanding, there’s clearly no way I’m going to Understand, no way I’m ever going to experience Understanding and, no way I’m going to respond to life in an Understanding way. I can’t give what I haven’t got.
If we don’t believe we can Understand, we won’t put forth any effort to even try. Understanding being a door that is closed to Us, we’ll concentrate of being ‘right’ instead. We have to ask ourselves what we really believe in. Being Right? Being Righteous? One does not necessarily mean the other.
Blind faith requires we live that Faith, blind, without Understanding. Once Understanding sinks in, we’re not blind anymore. Reminds me of being so desperate for Loving, that we’d use 2 paper bags to ‘make love’ to an ugly hooker. The first bag being to mask her face, the other being used to mask ours in case hers falls off. That’s what ‘blind faith’ is.
“That sounds awful! What do you really mean?” Clel asks.
“Blind faith asks Us to worship a psychologically ugly persona, ‘the ugly hooker’. ‘Hooker’ because her ‘love’ is extended only through barter. That tells me it’s ‘need’ disguising itself as ‘love’, for genuine Love extends itself freely. ‘Ugly’, because of the beliefs we have painted on her face. Beliefs in Being conditional. Judgmental. Rejecting. Vindictive. Jealous. Angry. Possessive. Abandoning. The face is so ugly the way we paint it, that we have to blind ourselves to it. The bag over her head, masks the hideous face we painted. The bag over our head masks our face, in case hers falls off. For We cannot hide what we truly feel. There is truly and genuinely no way we’re ever going to feel Love and Attraction towards this ugly persona. So we hide our face to mask our shame and deceit. This is a relationship pattern between Us and ‘God’, specifically the Holy Spirit, imagined as one of ‘need’. This isn’t ‘love making’. It’s prostitution, where our emotions are raped at the same time.
I won’t divorce myself from the Universal Principal of cause and effect, reaping and sowing. ‘Adoration’ is a consequence of Being ‘Adorable’. You BE adorable and I’ll adore you. I hardly find the condemning, rejecting and emotionally insecure ‘god’ of the World adorable at all. Far from it. I don’t happen to see Condemnation, Vengeance, Retribution and Abandonment as Loving much less Lovable. This face we paint on God isn’t attractive. The persona is insecure and limited. Not my kind of ideal…a limited unlimited. And the purpose of this ugly face, is to repulse Us. To motivate Us to avoid ‘Intimacy’ at all costs. To ‘Know’ God. To ‘Understand’ God. The Unconditionally Loving One. With the beautiful face and comforting embrace.
Always embraces all ways.
I admit, my perspective has to do with my choice of values, what I find of value and what I qualify as valuable. To Value means to Love. Here’s a good question: What’s the Value of a value system founded on lack of value? Absolutely nothing. Yet, that’s the value system most of us believe in and are trying to live.”
“A Value system founded on lack of Value?”
“Yes. The World’s Value system is founded on lack of Value. Denial. Specifically, self denial. Denying Loving ourselves Unconditionally. The less Loving it is, the more valuable it is to the majority of Us, since that majority believes in Love only upon condition. This isn’t ‘Love’ in the first place. It’s the lack of it…it’s ‘need’. Us that don’t have, seek to ‘get’, through barter, through trade. And any other means necessary: force, coercion, subversion, extortion, etc. We’ve created a global economy based on emotional insecurity. Loving the lack of Love. See what I mean by crazy? A Value system with no value in it.
And as for this value system’s ‘moral code’, it is essentially a code of conduct for the amoral.”
“A moral code for the amoral?”
“Yes. ‘Moral’ means that which is chosen. What with all the conditions placed on being loved and accepted, freedom of choice is negated. If I take choice out of the picture, then no ‘morals’ are possible. It becomes a code, not of morality but of a-morality. A code of conduct for the amoral.
Any moral code impossible to live, can’t Be lived. But we can try. That’s all we’ve been doing. Trying to make the impossible possible instead of realizing the impracticality and futility of it. Any code that only promises rewards upon death isn’t a code that supports Life. The only way to actually live the code is to die, for Death is the purpose and goal of the code. But it’s important to realize that not just any death will do. The greater the suffering, the supposedly greater the rewards gained from the freedom of the grave. It’s not only Death that is worshipped, it’s death by slow torture that is the pinnacle of this codes moral achievement. And forget about living in Integrity with the code. It’s impossible to both live and die at the same time and place in the same dimension. So long as we live, we live in conflict with this code.
Just as soon as I came to this realization myself, I changed my code. Most of us don’t even realize it’s a code of death we really believe in. We think we Love Life. But Fear of Death is not a Love for Life nor does it bring to Us the Wisdom to support it.
What we worship with every breath of our Life, is death. It’s subliminal for most of us, but it’s there if we but allow ourselves to look and ponder. But we must look seeking Understanding instead of being ‘right’. If there is imagined a possibility of torture, pain and suffering upon Death, then Death becomes feared. This fear, can then be used as a whip to control and enslave populations of People.
If you look around our World, it’s obvious what beliefs are being expressed. Daily. Hourly. Moment to moment. Experiences of separation. Separated from feeling Loved. Separated from Life. Separated from Sense. Separated from each other. Separated from a loving Universe capable of being embraced with open arms. The World uses Swords of Mind to draw lines. I don’t draw lines anymore. And I erased the ones I did have.
My values start with sense, as in making some. E-sense. The goal of my Life isn’t to reach death’s door through as much suffering as possible. The goal of my Life is to live it.
Ponder these thoughts for a while…What’s an ‘All That Is’ got to be jealous of? And Possessive? What’s that all about? What else is there besides ‘All That Is, Was and Ever Will Be’ to possess? To need? That’s goofy. Love extends Itself for the Joy of extending itself. Love doesn’t need anything in return. No conditions. No lines drawn separating reality. No One left out, rejected or abandoned.
I simply refuse to be dumb just as I refuse to be blind. Such is what happens when we open the door to our Hearts and allow the Essence of Understanding in. It’s like light bulbs going off inside Us. One ‘Aha!’ moment after another.
We start seeking to add things up. ‘Adding things up’ being one of the expressions of the Essence of Unity. In order to be ‘Whole’ everything has to add up. Can’t be any part left out or it isn’t Whole. ‘Adding things up’ requires the use of our cognitive faculties in bringing forth the Essence of Understanding, precisely what most religions do not want done.
The Essence of Understanding expresses itself most basically in our ability to associate and relate ideas. We play with ideas in our minds like kids play with blocks. We build concepts. We build beliefs and belief systems. We build cultures, civilizations and societies. This is the faculty of cognitive association and generally speaking, most of us have the use of it. Should we choose to use it.
Sometimes we call this association of ideas ‘thinking’. I’m picky about it. Integration and Integrity are my goals. They come in a package deal with the experiences of ‘Whole’ and ‘Complete’. In order for me to give credit for ‘thinking’, there has to be more to it that a hodge-podge of random ideas associated in such a way that nothing makes sense. ‘Adding things up’ requires the use of Reason. Reasoning is a process that associates ideas in ways where nothing is negated and no contradictions are made. It used to be known as ‘common sense’, since this faculty of Reason is common to All of Us.
According to my Understanding, the thought patterns of our World in no way resemble much in the way of thinking. Proper parroting, I call it. What’s considered ‘proper’ is to Parrot. That’s why I’m ‘improper’ because I don’t Parrot. I’m not reflecting to the World, what the World expects reflected.”
“Parrot?” Clel pipes up. “Nothing sucks seeds like a Parrot.”
“Very funny. I have a different idea of what it means to succeed besides sucking seeds. By ‘parroting’ I mean that the majority of Us have never entertained an independent thought. The only ideas in our heads are those put there by our family, our religions and, our governments. We don’t question. We’re Parrots.
“Bird brains? Asks Clel.
“I didn’t say it; you did. I give the birds more credit.”
“Now you’re getting downright mean.”, says Clel.
“I’m being truthful and honest. ‘Mean’ is a judgment of qualification because you didn’t like what I said. It doesn’t mean I’m ‘mean’. It simply means you didn’t like it.
I don’t give the birds capacity to think. A bird’s brain isn’t that big. It’s not big enough to process information. It’s not big enough to store information, like all the directions needed to fly south for the winter. And since I haven’t spotted any tiny microchips and microphones they all use to communicate when to turn in formation, I know they rely on their senses, specifically their ability to sense gravitational fields. E-senses. Like the basic Essence of Life that acts to support and nurture all Life. ‘Instinct’ in plants and animals. ‘Intuition’ in Human Beings. Same song of Life, just different octaves of expression.
Birds don’t have the same freedom of choice to divorce themselves from their means of awareness as we do. A bird can’t choose to short circuit it’s Love for its own Life. It’s only Human Beings that have the free choice to negate our most basic ‘Instinct’. Our Love for Life. And the majority of Us have done it.
We draw lines of limitation. Endeavoring to emulate an historical ideal that was a product of the imagination of a ragtag bunch of primitive nomadic tribes. Volcano blowing up was understood to mean the ‘gods’ must be displeased. Or better yet, that ‘god’ was offended and demanded some form of restitution in the manner of sacrifice. A god that needs. An impotent Omnipotence.
We, Humanity, didn’t even understand our World was round back then. Even now, we’re somewhat pathetic. There was one of Us knuckleheads spouting off about a month ago that Hurricane Katrina was ‘god’s’ punishment for New Orleans being a city of ‘sin’. Notice how blind, ignorant and ‘righteous’ we can be?
If we build our house below sea level, then we shouldn’t be surprised when water comes into our kitchens. Just as if we build our house on the side of an active volcano we shouldn’t be surprised by lava in our living room. Making choices in defiance of reality is one thing. Offending some sort of insecure deity, quite another.
I give most of Us credit for acquiring some smarts over the past few thousands of years. We didn’t stagnate. We’re Living Beings. We’ve grown in our understanding of our World and now, maybe it’s time we grew in our Understanding of ourselves.”
“Primitive nomadic tribes? Are you insulting my tribal culture?’ hollers Clel.
“I’m talking about the nomadic tribes of thousands of years ago, that were interspersed throughout the Middle East and Europe. Our ‘cradle of civilization’ for Western Culture. Our current culture is riddled and infiltrated with primitive beliefs: taboos, fetishes and superstitions. From a time in history when what passed for ‘god’ in our imagination, was simply a bigger version of ourselves and, just as limited in terms of Understanding and Compassion. Later, these beliefs were translated into ‘sins’.
We’re blind to the fact that such beliefs express our own limitations. Where we’ve drawn lines and chosen to pick up swords, repeating the past.”
“You mentioned drawing lines a couple of times. What do you mean?”
“I mean we draw lines when it comes to Loving Life. ‘Life’ is an experience. And we draw lines when it comes to what experiences we willingly embrace with Understanding, Acceptance, Tolerance, Compassion and Mercy. The ‘right & wrong’ bit is simply ‘moral’ cough cough justification for our deplorable lacks in terms of qualities of character. Anytime there is a polarity issue, then a line of separation and imitation has been drawn.
What Eastern mystics call ‘Karma’ is nothing more than self-judgment, where all these lines have been drawn. Look at the relationship we have with Life, with ‘God’, with the Unified Quantum Field. Is it limited? What do we reject? What experiences in Life have we and do we, pick up our swords of Mind, label ‘negative’ and, endeavor to separate ourselves from?
Negative poles are always attracted to negative magnetic fields.
Every moment is a Present. Whether that moment is happy or sad. How often are we appreciative and grateful for our Presents?
How much do we Love Life?
It doesn’t matter what side a person chooses in a polarity game, red or blue. A polarity game is a game of separation. It’s why I don’t play. Only losers play games of polarity. And I’m not a loser anymore. It goes something like this: Polarity = Loser. AnyOne of Us living a reality divided into parts, like right and wrong, good and bad, light and dark, etc., has already chosen to live life as a loser, choosing to limit ourselves. The only winning move is not to play the game. And the only way out of it, is through Understanding the Unity of Life, as Christ exemplified.
The current Understanding of ‘Christianity’ doesn’t have much Essence of Christ in it. I’d call what we created a ‘Jesus cult’. It’s easy to spot members of a Jesus cult. They’re the ones of Us carrying around crosses and wailing about our roles as martyrs and victims. A Jesus cult worships suffering. One time a fundamentalist asked me if Jesus knocked on my door, would I answer? I said ‘yes’ and went on to say that I would tell him he was welcome in my house, however, he’d have to leave his cross at the door. For Christ already dwells in my house.
Jesus represents carrying around a burden of Guilt. Christ represents freedom, from it, through the Essence of Forgiveness. Ones wears a crown of Thorns, the other, carries a Lily. Guilt and Forgiveness are mutually exclusive terms. Not a One of Us going around whipping ourselves with guilt over some imagined ‘sin’ genuinely believes in Christ.
“You’re stepping on quite a few toes, Honey,” says my loving Husband.
“I know. I’ve been accused of being ‘anti-every religion I know’ at one time or another. I never will forget the Holocaust survivor that about blew a fuse when I mentioned ‘reaping and sowing’ and related it to beliefs founded in arrogance, bias, supremacy, and prejudice. Religious arrogance, religious bias, religious supremacy and religious prejudice. They didn’t like it at all when I illuminated that if We don’t want to reap it, then We should quit sowing it. Dissolved the ‘victim’ perspective right out from under them. They went ballistic. It was almost as good as the time on the 4th of July when the boys got the mortars in the wrong shells and they exploded only 8’ in the air. You know I love fireworks, Dear. Smiling.
It’s what I was saying about the difference between what we think and what we believe. We think we’re ‘Christians’ if we think about it at all. “Christian” actually means Christ-like linguistically, when what we truly believe in, is Guilt. Limitation is the World’s Passion. Expansion of the Kingdom, Mine. Nothing separates heaven from Earth unless I choose to see it that way. This is where the World and I differ. I don’t choose to see it that way.
I don’t idolize man-made nonsense, as in, a limited Unlimited or an impotent Omnipotence. It’s Understanding and Compassion I value, not Condemnation and Rejection. Sooner or later, were all going to realize that the abstract can only be brought down to earth by choice. This requires we cease our knee jerk reactions to judge and condemn, to draw lines and, start building a healthier relationship with Life through Understanding.
